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8th hour, Monday
I hope you aren’t the trustee who sat on the toad? It went off―I was told―with quite a pop, so probably he was a fatter trustee.
Do you remember the little dugout places with gratings over them by the laundry windows in he John Grier Home? Every spring when the hoptoad season opened we used to form a collection of toads and keep them in those window holes; and occasionally they would spill over into the laundry, causing a very pleasurable commotion on wash days. We were severely punished for our activities in this direction, but in spite of all discouragement the toads would collect.
And one day―well, I won’t bore you with particulars―but somehow, one of the fattest, biggest, juiciest toads got into one of those big leather arm chairs in the trustees’ room, and that afternoon at the trustees’ meeting . . . But I dare say you were there and recall the rest?
Looking back dispassionately after a period of time, I will say that punishment was merited, and ―if I remember rightly―adequate.
I don’t know why I am in such a reminiscent mood except that spring and the reappearance of toads always awakens the old acquisitive instinct. The only thing that keeps me from starting a collection is the fact that no rule exists against it.
After chapel, Thursday
What do you think is my favorite book? Just now, I mean; I change every three days. Wuthering Heights. Emily Bronte[(1818-1848)愛蜜麗•勃朗特，英國女作家，《咆哮山莊》的作者] was quite young when she wrote it, and had never been outside of Haworth churchyard. She had never known any men in her life; how could she imagine a man like Heathcliffe? [《咆哮山莊》的男主角]
I couldn’t do it, and I’m quite young and never outside the John Brier asylum―I’ve had every chance in the world. Sometimes a dreadful fear comes over me that I’, not a genius. Will you be awfully disappointed, Daddy, If I don’t turn out to be a great author? In the spring when everything is so beautiful and green and budding, I feel like turning my back on lessons, and running away to play with the weather. There are such lots of adventures out in the fields! It’s much more entertaining to live books than to write them.
That was a shriek which brought Sallie and Julia and (for a disgusted moment the senior form across the hall. It was caused by a centipede like this:
Only worse. Just as I had finished the last sentence and was thinking what to say next―plump!―it fell off the ceiling and landed at my side. I tipped two cups off the tea table in trying to get away. Sallie whacked it with the back of my hairbrush―which I shall never be able to use again―and killed the front end. But the tear fifty feet ran under the bureau and escaped.
The dormitory, owing to its age and ivy-covered walls, is full of centipedes. They are dreadful creatures. I’d rather find a tiger under the bed.
Such a lot of troubles! I didn’t hear the rising bell this morning, then I broke my shoestring while I was hurrying to dress and dropped my collar button down my neck. I was late for breakfast and also for first-hour recitation. I forgot to take any blotting paper and my fountain pen leaked. In trigonometry the professor and I had a disagreement touching a little matter of logarithms. On looking it up, I find that she was right. We had mutton stew and pie-plant[大黃屬植物，其莖可供食用，西方常用來做餡餅。] for lunch―hate ‘em both; they taste like the asylum. Nothing but bills in my mail(though I must say that I never do get anything else; my family are not the kind that write). In English class this afternoon we had an unexpected written lesson. This was it:
I asked no other thing,
No other was denied.
I offered Being for it;
The mighty merchant smiled.
Brazil? He twirled a button
Without a glance my way:
But, madam, is there nothing else
That we can show today?
That is a poem. I don’t know who wrote it or what it means. It was simply printed out on the blackboard when we arrived and we were ordered to comment upon it. When I read he first verse I thought I had an idea―the mighty merchant was a divinity who distributes blessings in return for virtuous deeds―but when I got to the second verse and found him twirling a button, it seemed a blasphemous supposition, and I hastily changed my mind. The rest of the class was in the same predicament; and there we sat for three-quarters of an hour with blank paper and equally blank minds. Getting an education is an awfully wearing process!
But this didn’t end the day. There’s worse to come.
I rained so we couldn’t play golf, but had to go to gymnasium instead. The girl next to me banged my elbow with an Indian club. I got home to find that the box with my new blue spring dress had come. And the skirt was so tight that I couldn’t sit down. Friday is sweeping day, and the maid had mixed all the papers on my desk. We had tombstone for dessert (milk and gelatin flavored with vanilla). We were kept in chapel twenty minutes later than usual to listen to a speech about womanly women. And then―just as I was settling down with a sigh of well-earned relief to The Portrait of a Lady[美國小說家亨利•詹姆斯巴達1843-1916]的作品。], a girl named Ackerly, a doughfaced, deadly, unintermittently stupid girl, who sits net to me in Latin because her name begins with A (I wish Mrs. Lippett had named me Zabriski), came to ask if Monday’s lesson commenced at paragraph 69or 70, and stayed ONE HOUR. She had just gone.
Did you ever hear of such a discouraging series of events? It isn’t the big troubles in life that require character. Anybody can rise to a crisis and face a crushing tragedy with courage, but to meet the petty hazards of the day with a laugh―I really think that requires spirit.
It’s the kind of character that I am going to develop. I am going to pretend that all life is just a game which I must play as skillfully and fairly as I can. If I am going to shrug my shoulders and laugh―also if I win.
Anyway, I am going to be a sport.[指具有公正、勇敢、不氣餒等性格的人。] You will never hear me complain again. Daddy dear, because Jylia wears silk stockings and centipedes drop off the wall.